Ode to you

Loving my history and hating the entity...

Did you swear on it?

Did you put your life on the lies?

My name and your name go together

Like salt and pepper

Come and whisper your sorrows because

Your laughter creates fickle memories

Tell me about the messages you left for everyone but me.

Cheers to you and your wishes

I'm in London still...

And yet I will never be where you want me to be

Drink your apples and ridicule me

When I'm only trying to console your beliefs of who we are and

Who we were meant to be.

Lovely

You are

My hesitant glance

Fast forward to adamant conversations

About frequent trips to Europe

That make no sense of how it actually is with us.

Can you sip my sweetness and tell me that it's over?

You shine with your intoxicating sadness

Cuddle.

Blaming my hatred on loving you

Blaming the hatred on losing you

Back and forth I struggle with your cold mistakes

All of your kindness and punches and smiles and blows and

Oh the bruises you left.

Can I give up after all this time?

Compilations of our troubles

Are my intimate meanings and doubts

I quietly show you my tears

And pray you cry for me as well

The color of ripe tomatoes I get

When I know it's not about me you write.

Breaking News: You forgot your pieces.

I would have been fine without you

You just filled spaces I didn't know I had.

We could have gone dreamer...

We could have car danced to our one destination

When your path was laced with mine

I should leave you behind

To be your own person without my wraths and chains and gate

God I've cured my block

And it was you darling

My love and hate.